- Location:lbrary
- Mood:
accomplished
its been a rough two days. started yesterday with my cellphone dying at an inopportune time. i was at home eating my lunch when r calls the house. apparently he's been trying to reach me, and so had aiden's summer camp because the kid had forgotten to bring his lunch. since they couldn't get me r had to leave work to take it to him. so r lost time at work. that evening i get another call from r just as i was stripping out of my clothes for the day. his car was acting up. before two minutes the car had died in the middle of a hugely busy three lane road during rush hour. sigh... so we have to get a tow truck. we have to communicate on two mostly dead cell phones (i plugged mine in for ten minutes before having to leave the house again). we get the car to the place we had it fixed last time and the part is three weeks out of warrenty. we can get a good part to replace it - but the total cost = nearly 900 bucks. we can go the cheap fix for about 400+ 90 for the tow. we're just hoping that we can have his car survive another year so we can save to get him a newer one. his is a 95. it has had shite loads of expensive problems in the three years we've had it. this is the third altenator in that amount of time... sigh...
last night the dryer also stopped working. thank the great fluffy bunnies it is under warrenty. but the damn thing is only two weeks old so it really grinds my gears you know. i am grateful they had a saturday appointment for me to get it fixed. at least i don't have to take off more time from work.
last night i came SOOOO closing to caving and eating pizza for dinner. r helped me through it and i just ate the cheese and some chicken wings. he said if i was going to blow the diet it should at least be over something i REALLY wanted, not just plain cheese pizza. i ended up with 22 carbs for the day which blows. but it was actually largely the fault of the protein bar i had at lunch. 12 grams for that alone! so no more of those fuckers! it didn't even taste good. i can have a little debbie 100 calorie snack cake for the exact same amount of carbs and it will at least taste good! not going to eat those yet either. today makes my first full week on the atkins. 211.6 yesterday, 211.2 this morning. i feel i will do better in the morning because i kept my carbs at 10.2 grams today and i added an extra half a mile to my 3 mile morning bike ride (stationary) and 50 crunches. my co-workers and i even went out to eat at a restraunt today and i stuck to my diet without any real trouble!!! i was very proud!
having aiden home has been really, really great. he's been so well behaved and sweet. i hate it when he's gone!!!
r has been WONDERFUL to me lately, especially today. he knows i've been really stressed out lately because of all the crap, so many extra unexpected bills this month (the car is just the icing on the cake this month) and then the diet and my period to boot. so he offered to make dinner tonight and he got all the information together to deal with the dryer and was going to do it himself AND he cleaned the kitchen as i had been saying i would for the last 4 days. if you knew how he was about making phone calls at all, let alone to strangers, you'd realize what a huge thing his offer to handle the dryer thing was and how special it made me feel. he really loves me and its the most awesome thing in the world!!!
shoot yeah, also the air conditioner isn't keeping the house as cool as its supposed to. so that's pissing me off too. UGH!!! lol... shit happens. with all the bad stuff i'm still so happy and grateful for what i've got - even if i whine about the other stuff.
i think i'm going to start a new sewing project to help me take my mind off of food. and i'm going to start a new video game i haven't played. we've had it forever - but i sucked at shooter when we got it. now i'm good at them and want to try my hand at it. we recently hooked the ps2 back up in our bedroom so i played resident evil 4 for the first time. beat it twice as leon and once as ada so far!!! i LOVES it! got the unlimited rocket launcher for leon!!! ::grins::
hope everyone is having a great day. now that the library is in order i seem to be spending more time in here on the net again so that's cool. get to post more often.
night kitties. i'm off to kiss my hubby, tuck the wee one into bed and figure out the rest of my evening. ::squishes::
- Location:library
- Mood:
tired
in other less whiney news - we started putting up the family photos this past weekend!!! i am soooo excited about that! i've been trying to talk myself into doing it for months. i'm glad i finally did. the entry way is almost done, and i spent a good chunk of time going through photos we took on our trip to find ones for the walls. also went through the wedding photos and that was tons and TONS of FUN!!! god i love my hubby. love him more every single day though it hardly seems possible. my soulmate and best friend through and through. he gave me a big hug when i got home pouting after the store today. he'd made dinner for me and it was delicious. i pre-organized several meals so all we'd have to do in the evenings is through them on the grill. i'm totally not up for a long wait time for dinner or big effort when i get home these days.
anyways, aside from the whole grocery store fiasco thing i was feeling really super all day. i've met my 15 pounds lost for the year goal. i'm feeling productive at work. i have my dream home - or at least a home of my own which has always been my huge dream. aiden is slowly coming around at school. and i've been progressing on my reading schedule which makes me feel really great. i feel like i've been getting a handle on our finances finally and getting the family dental work in hand and lined up. losing weight was my last big obstacle. i feel like for the first time in my life i'm really in control. i mean i still believe in the wild and randomness in life. so by control i mean as far as control is possible in reality. but like i am truely being proactive in steering the course of all the aspects of my life that i feel need it. i've always been very goal oriented - but i never seemed able to juggle all the things in my life i felt were my responsibility. for the first time ever, all the balls are moving. they don't have to always move smoothly, as long as i keep them going. i truely feel good and strong for the first time ever. i am confident in a way that i've only ever managed to outwardly seem before. i am happy, ::knocks on wood:: and grateful and full of plans!!! it still seems as if there are never enough hours in the day. but right this second i'm not beating myself up because of it. and that feels like a real triumph. does that make sense? ::shrugs and grins::
hope everyone is doing well. love and squishes!!!
- Mood:
accomplished
- Location:library
- Mood:
accomplished
lets see, i read the accidental friends trilogy this past two weeks. i have a real hankering to read my old chemistry text book. which i am afraid i put in the box o books for charity.
i organized the snot out of my library yesterday. tomorrow the appraiser is coming over so we can get the ball rolling on refinancing the house. i hope to heck that works out well. i'm getting nervous about it.
we went on vaction over the memorial day weekend to arkansas where there's tons of quartz!!! it was WONDERFUL. i'll upload pics soonish. probably.
i was hoping that posting would help me gather my thoughts this morning - but it seems not. sigh...
i was down to 215 on my diet. i was so super proud!!! since the trip i'm back at 218. very depressing. next trip i need to plan to have healthier food available. ::grins::
ok - so mental slap. this is what i need to do. aiden is gone for the summer. i need to plan a regiment of exercise and study to use this time wisely and get the house in shape for when he returns. i need to list the things that need to be done around the house and make a calender for when i will accomplish each goal. ok kitties. enough sitting on my bum this morning. i'm off to get things accomplished!!!
i do still read when i can. i miss you all very much. my life has just been hectic lately.
- Location:library
- Mood:
determined
good morning everyone!!! i miss you all. we're all doing well - just been super busy lately. lets see, I finally finished the book pillars of the earth. it was one of r's all time favorites, its also one long son of beast. but it was GOOD. so not in my normal vein of reading. i have hardly ever hated characters so much or wished so hard for other's triumph. pretty dang cool.
i'm less than one pages from finishing the physics and chemistry of color and nearly 200 pages into drawing down the moon by margot adler.
i'm at 536 books in my excel sheet. i'm archiving my library. once i finish it i will be uploading it to the goodreads.com site. really excited about that.
aiden had four teeth pulled yesterday. it was HORRIBLE. unimaginably horrible. and having seen horror movies where that's a form of torture? yeah - i felt EVIL. but he needed it done.
anywho - i have to run to work kitties!!! much loves and squishes.
- Location:living room
- Mood:
chipper
aiden and i rocked on the swing a long time today. he let his mind wander through a stream of fantasy and mischief and kept me cracking up the whole time. it was a ton of fun. i taught him how to spread peanut butter for a sandwich today. he didn't want to learn as having mommy make the sandwich is far easier. little pooper!!! by his age i was fairly self sufficient. i was a microwaving QUEEN. lol. ::shrugs::
we went to a small pagany type festival yesterday. we all had pics of our auras taken. it was a lot of fun. spent more than we should have, but it was a good time all around. i don't ever think i'm going to fit in down here with the locals though. but i also don't think now is the right time in my life to be looking for another group.
i feel a little lost on my days off from work still since i'm not in school. nothing is pressing and motivating me to do stuff. and house work bites ass. if we can ever afford it we're hiring a freaking maid. someone to do dishes, laundry, and cart the trash out. maybe vaccum, sweep, and mop too. ugh... those things are not my prioreties.
we got resident evil 5 last night. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. so that will likely be occupying us for a little while. gosh i'm thirsty as heck - going to go out and scrounge up something to drink and try to figure out dinner.
miss you my kitties! ::huggins::
- Location:r's office
- Mood:
blah
where i've been? busy to the point of my brain exploding. i've grown to truely enjoy my work. i'm busy as hell covering my daunting normal duties, and on top of that two huge projects. on the side lines in the back burner is an additional huge project that i was assigned that i just don't have time to accomplish. i changed my schedule to 9 hour days so i have a spare day in case of aiden emergency. this has been working out great so far - but leaves me drained at the end of the day. hence little to no posting lately...
they upped aiden's dosage to 20mg of adderol. it is working SO much better now. he's still eating most of the time (not lunch - but that's no matter which medicine) so that's a miracle. he's doing much better behavior wise in school - now we just have to get him to actually give a snot about completing his class work... my child through and through... me - i was anti homework. didn't touch the stuff until the end of 9th grade. ::shrugs:: so we're working on him.
he had his first ever sleep over this weekend. it went really well i think. the kid had a great time. aiden had a great time. i didn't kill any children - so i success all around i think. ::grins::
r bought me a lavender plant (already grown up) for valentines. i was SOOOO excited!!! i LOVES IT!!! i just have to not kill the beast. my aloe plant did not appreciate being left in the frosty weather... but it seems to be bouncing back for the most part. i just have to come to terms with the fact that i am a rock girl - not a plant girl. but screw that. i'm going to use some of the xmas card for home depot mom got us and get some of those half barrel looking things for the back yard (on wheels so i can bring them into the garage in bad weather) for lavender and rosemary and basil, and tomatoes. plans... plans... i'll believe it when i actually do it, have the pics as proof and they aren't all dead within 6 weeks. sigh...
he also got me an awesome amethyst point necklace and an amethyst ring. beautiful!!! the point is wrapped in silver and reminds me of the one i lost several years ago - but more elegant. for his first attempt at buying me jewelry without my input he did fabulous!!! it really means the world to me. some girls want gold and diamonds. me - i want silver, amethyst, moonstone, and other rocks that don't hit the radar for most women. and i love that he gets that about me.
the house is looking so much better. r did a fabulous job cleaning over this past week. he's phenomenal. the house is really starting to look like a grown up house. decent furniture - things not all over the place. speaking of... i want to get the laundry done before r get home. i hope i manage it because he really deserves a better wife. really - we need a maid. i'm not at all girly.
i have banished my self from all shopping websites until the end of march. this is another reason i'm not on the net so much lately. its hard. i was addicted to be sure. sometimes its down right painful not to see what's on sale at amazon. but - so far i've been pretty good. i was sort of bad the other day at the store. but i content myself with the fact that i was getting stuff on clearance for the boys and stuff for aiden's sleep over. nothing for me. but even that has to stop. we have bills to pay and credit that needs attending to. r and aiden need dental work done and that's not going to happen if i keep getting dvds, rocks and books. sigh...
i'm still doing my exercises in the mornings. i wasn't good last week. but at least i haven't lost any ground weight wise. still holding at 217ish... lol. i got a kick in the pants last night about it though. i find that if you are looking for it - the universe will let you know which way you're supposed to go. i happened to see a few minutes of that ruby show. and if she can stick to 1500 calories a day - by golly i damn sure can. it sucks a lot some days. the food i eat tastes good. i just get cravings. i get bummed at times and want to eat. i get tired of trying and seeing so little progress. god i hate getting on the scale at the doctors. clothes on and likely more accurate = asani's scale is a much better alternative. sigh... i think i'm going to cap myself at five miles a morning. i don't have time for more than that in the mornings before work. i think five miles is a good place to be right now anyway. it burns about 200 calories + those few from the crunches. i think i need to make a chart of all the types of foods that i eat so that i can more closely monitor my intake for the day. make a spread sheet where i can just check things off and it tallies things up for me. that sounds like a fun project. wonder when i could squeeze it in. lol...
ok lots to do before the day is out. shopping for groceries. laundry. and work stuff i need to have ready for tomorrow. sheesh!!! its so not all going to get done today. boogers!
have a great day my kitties.
- Location:bed
- Mood:
busy
i've changed my goal for the month to staying off all shopping web sites. that should save us plenty of mulah... lol. i'm so bad.
anywho - have a great saturday kitties!!! smooches!!!
- Location:bedroom
- Mood:
busy
aiden's new meds are working out great. he's improving in school. he's well behaved at home at night. ::crosses fingers and knocks on wood:: not much to post about these days. work is killing me. i'm drained by the time i get home each night. so its usually aiden's homework, dinner, whatever chore i've picked for the night, cartoons and then bed.
anwho - off to get on my bike. ugh... ::grins:: have a great friday kitties!!! much squishens and snuggins!!!
- Location:bedroom
- Mood:
blah
its been serious crunch time at work this past week. super important project and me at the reins of it. mwahahahahahaha... no really, i'm pulling my hair out on this one.
lets see, horrible migraine wednesday. came home from work went straight to bed. woke around 10:30 for noodles and tea curtesy of awesome hubby. headache finally eased a tinsey bit. it was the first caffine i'd had in two weeks. might have had something to do with it. but - i think i was have had caffine withdrawls before that day if that was the issue. ::shrugs:: went back to bed immediately after and slept like a log till morning.
i am up 4 miles on the exercise bike and 50 crunches in the morning. i am holding pretty much at 218. BUT my clothes are feeling looser and i FEEL better and i generally have more energy - headaches aside. ::grins:: i am very please with my progress. i am also reading still to keep up with my non-fiction goals for the year AND watching my educational movies in the morning while i work out. so far i have gotten through 2 joseph campbell vhs tapes this week.
i went to the 9hour work day schedule - which is largely why i haven't been on lj. 9 hours killed in me in the beginning. i am adjusting though and damn if i don't like having one day off each pay period. today is my first day off! SQUEE. not squee is that i will be using it to run about a million errands. first is taking aiden back to the doctor for his meds. his teacher called yesterday - apprently he's been a terror this month. so the new meds are not working out. our options are to put him back on what he was on before or up his dose on this one. i am afraid to up his dose, but talking to the doctor should help to sort things out i guess. blah... this is not the fun.
then i am off to make a and r dental appointments. got to find r a doc that is open on saturdays and is covered by our insurance. then off to find copies of the lord of the rings trilogy for our movie marathon this weekend! since i stuck to my monthly goal of eating lunch at home everyday. was NOT easy. largely guilt helped me stick to it - but i made it. :) then its off to enroll at sam's club so we can save money on groceries. and then pay our fees at the video rental place. get groceries maybe. and other stuff i don't recall. more chores around the house as well. sigh... maybe i would fair better just going into work eh? lol
well my kitties. i've read as much as i have time for this morning. i will try to catch up as i can. i miss you all muchly!!! hugs and squishes and snuggins. have a wonderful friday!!!
- Location:library
- Mood:
determined - Music:fighting with my munchkin to get ready
- Location:living room
- Mood:
determined
its only been three days since i started my routine, but i have thus far stuck to it. today is the telling day because i have something that's getting in the way of my normal schedule. that's what normally screws me. i've told myself i will do the exercise right after the appointment and then head to work. let's see if that actually pans out. ::grins:: i'm hoping so.
wild dreams last night. very, very awesome and cool and freaking awesome. i don't even have words for the stuff i do in my dreams lately. and its all so blessedly vivid. i wish i could recall the details well into my waking hours so i could pen them down. i'd make a fortune.
ugh... ok, taking aiden to school, then the doc apt. aiden should get his report card today. fingers crossed for that kitties.
i'm off. have a great day kitties. the week is nearly over thank goodness!!!
OH - i started working on the power point for the first stone class i want to teach. SQUEE. and i've been reading my non-fiction books before bed too. so fingers crossed on the new year's resolutions actually panning out. i did finish one book and am working on book 2 now! YAY!
- Mood:
accomplished
anywho - yesterday was interesting. i am looking forward to some quiet in the house for a couple days. hope everyone is doing well out there in cyber land kitties! ::smooches::
- Location:livingroom
- Mood:
blah
the last two times i was going to post i accidently deleted it. ::shrugs::
i haven't been able to get on lj much lately. my laptop is in a box waiting to be shipped to HP for a repair to the broken left hinge. second time this has happened. i asked if this was going to actually keep the problem from happening again. they said it should. i will believe it when i see it. or rather don't see it again in six months. urgh...
i'm bleeding and very grumpy this morning it seems. stupid hormones.
the kitties seem to have dealt with each other and now for the most part play nice. with lots of love and attention yuki has come more out of his shell. he explores the house now, chases the other kitties to play and comes to us for lovens. ::grins:: he just needed lots of reassurance. i am tryin to talk myself into going upstairs and doing my morning exercises. i don't wanna - but i NEED to if i am to have a hope of finding my cheery disposition today.
ok i have to go help my kids find today's clothes. he's 8 - so apparently he can't do this by himself. i said i was grumpy right? lol
have a great day kitties!
- Location:r's new office
- Mood:
bitchy
I picked up copies of Swallowing Darkness and the first Twilight book. I don't know that I will get to read them this weekend because of all the stuff that needs to get done. I want to revaccuum the house one more time before the kittens. Then I need to bathe corvus. We're getting the xmaas tree. I have to get that set up, get it decorated, etc... I really, really, really need to make sure i get my xmas cards done. I might try and work on those during my lunch break today. Last call for addresses if you would like one!
I've decided to get the cats one of those cat tower things for xmas. And I've even decided to let them have a corner of my library that would other wise be filled with book cases to put it in. I must really like corvus. ::grins::
if things go well with work they might make me permanent now instead of waiting till the 20th and having to do more paper work. I would really appreciate that. But frankly I would just appreciate them actually putting my freaking raise in the system BEFORE the end of the pay period so i don't have to wait ANOTHER two weeks. Ugh... people aren't fun sometimes.
anywho... i have to run to work my kitties. have a wonderful friday!!! much lovens!!! ::squishes and snugs::
- Location:library
- Mood:
chipper
my laptop hinge is broken AGAIN. fortunately HP is fixing this time on their dime. i hope at least. i got an e-mail saying they are recalling this particular part. going to call them about it today...ish.. also need to call bank of america and close my accounts with them as i think they are douche bags and they don't have a bank here in louisiana.
kitty has ring worm. hence, aiden and i now have it. ::tares at hair:: gave him his first bath last night. he's so f-ing pissed at me about it. BUT while we were at the vets i saw a sign for two free kitties. one is perfectly snow white with one blue eye and one green. his mommy is part siamese. (Sp?) i want them BOTH, but so far only have r convince to let me have the white one. seriously - if he thinks about it - giving my kitties to love on so i don't spaz about wanting a new baby is really quite the deal for him. we have to wait a week while we decontaminate us and corvus before they can come home - but the vet is being cool and keeping them for us no big deal. SQUEE!!! i loves kitties!!! (I call grown cats kitties too - so don't worry i won't think they are just as adorable when they are grown). my only other big concern is my dad. he can't stand the one cat we have. two more is not going to make him happy. but freaking by golly its our house isn't it? this is a sucky delima. which i did not spell right - but don't have the time to think through.
aiden was also taken to the doc and we now have meds to get rid of our ring worm asap. so - now i'm going to be disinfecting the whole house and us. that's my goal for the day - clean house, mop floors, wipe surfaces down. all this after work. which i need to drag my buttocks to asap. we're supposed to isolate the kitty in one room for a week. it breaks my heart to do that but with the new kitties coming in i think it would be the prudent thing to do. i'm going to put him in the library. its big and wood floor make it easily cleanable. got to talk to hubby about it.
loves my kitties!!! i missed you!
- Location:library
- Mood:
awake
oh - i got a hair cut. i told the lady to cut my hair the way she thought it would look the best. i'll try and get pics soon. no pics from today because we realized half way there that i had left the SD card in my laptop. :( but, we'll get some next year.
last night i got ALL of the empty boxes out of garage. there was a HUGE ton of trash at the curb last night. broken furniture, so much stuff. it took me a good while to bag it and get it all out there. but it felt so good to finally have gotten it done. i really, really want to get the garage organized. and i admit it looks loads better now. but i need to get some good shelving out there and we don't have the money for it yet.
anywho. it was a wonderful family bonding day. we can't wait to go again next year. it was so much FUN!!! SQUEE!!!
hopw everyone is having a wonderful weekend. tomorrow we're going to the race track down here with dad to watch the horses. keep warm kitties! and good night! ::smooches and snuggings::
- Location:library
- Mood:
chipper
r wants to take aiden and i to the zoo tomorrow. we've lived here nearly three years and haven't been yet (though we did hit the aquairium once). i'm really, really excited about it. and its not as expensive as i thought it would be. he was soooo sweet when he brought it up, saying he wanted to make sure aiden got to do all the things as a kid he wasn't able to do. i love the hubby. I WANNA SEE THE TIGERS!!! AND WOOVIES!!
i believe i am going to go and do some cleaning and working in the library.
the boys are wrestling across my new furniture! r just RAN across my f-ing couch! OMG, no he did not. going to give him a wet willy in his sleep! bad daddy! sheesh, now aiden is standing on the couch. going to squish them both. ::shakes head:: my boys. they are so cute!!!
oooo... will the kitty attack now? bwahahahahahahaha!!!!
- Location:living room
- Mood:
cheerful
- Location:r's new office
- Mood:
contemplative
