quicky - because i wanted to be at work by now.  yesterday was crash day.  we've been working and working and working and i just used up all of my reserves.  i could barely stay awake at work yesterday.  i got home and slept till r got home.  then i took another nap before making a late dinner for us and going to bed.  let me tell you - the new couch is f-ing comfy.  though sadly not wide enough for r and i to lay on together as we like to.  but it folds out into a bed - so there's always that.  
yesterday my eye was RAGING at me.  to the point where i broke down and started doing some research on the lingering effects of bell's palsy.  turns out - what's going on with me isn't uncommon.  firstly - the muscles on that side of my face never QUITE got back to normal.  i can't smile the same.  which is sad because i liked my smile.  one corner of my mouth doesn't go the same distance as the other side.  its not that bad - but i notice it.  to me it looks like i'm smirking when i mean to be smiling brightly.  i worry that when i'm smiling at people - which i love to do - they might think i'm smirking not nicely at them.  silly - but i do worry about it.  and my eye doesn't blink enough or as strongly as it should to move the tears around over my eye to keep it lubricated enough.  this is a HUGE problem when working on a computer all day - because when you look at a computer you already don't blink as often as normal.  i'm CONSTANTLY using eye drops.  its not helping enough.  my eye is constantly getting swollen and painful.  i talked to the eye doctor about this in january.  i don't think he took my problem seriously.  just told me to keep using drops.  ugh...  i need to figure out something i can do to fix this.  it sucks and i'm worried that in time i'm going to abuse this eye to the point that it goes bad on me.  its already not as good as my other eye.  and i used to have better than perfect vision.  when bell's palsy reoccurs its usually at ten year intervals.  which in my case hold roughly true.  i had it at about 9 and then again at 21.  so - i'm due again in about 5 - 6 years.  it sucks...  blah.